Goodbye, Fatty!

Weight this morning: 157.6

First of all, I don’t read other weight loss blogs that much.  I really want to get more into the online weight-loss community, so I did some looking around and found a couple to follow.  Also, reading other people’s blogs gives me ideas on how to make this blog better.  I don’t want to steal without giving credit, though!  A Struggling Food Addict is a good one, and she puts her current weight at the top of every entry in big, bold letters.  Since I update this blog so frequently, I won’t do that every time, but I think it’s a good idea, and I want to adopt it!  So now I’ll put my “weight this morning” number at least every couple of days, and I’ll only update the weight loss tracker page with bigger milestones.  So thanks for the inspiration, Struggling Food Addict!

This morning was the first time I did some actual research into getting a breast lift, which has been on my mind more and more.  Looking at the “before” pictures, I feel very confident now that the only way my boobs are going to not be a giant saggy mess is through surgery.  About 27 more pounds to lose, and they’re already drooping to almost the bottom of my ribcage.  I’ve always been large-chested, and gaining weight rapidly just made them larger.  They were pretty ok until I got to about 170 lbs, and after that, they started to sag.  They’re really not small, I’m still a DD/E cup and I don’t expect to ever go below a D.  I’m fine having large breasts, but I want them to look normal – I want to feel comfortable in shirts, bras, and bathing suits.  Even now, the tops of my boobs are so jiggly that even wearing my really good bras, I feel gross and don’t want to wear even remotely low-cut shirts.  It’s like I’m walking around with a bowl of pudding on my chest.

I know, I’m maddeningly appealing.

The only reason I’m not curled up in a corner crying “It’s not fair!” is that I have someone amazing in my life who loves me and loves my body, saggy boobies and all.  He actually doesn’t really want me to have any surgery, but we looked through some of the before and after pictures today and I think he came around to understanding why I want it.  After assuring him about a hundred times that I only wanted a lift, that I did not want implants, I think he’s more open to the idea.  And after looking at the photos, so am I.  People who only get a lift (sans implants) are really hard to find, but they’re the ones who end up with real-looking boobies, not big fake melons.  Big fake melons are totally fine, if that’s what you like, but not for me!

In other news, my weight is yet again unchanged from yesterday, even though I went to the gym and actually ate under my calorie limit….by the time I got to that last 250 calories I could’ve had, I just wasn’t hungry anymore.  Today, my friend is driving through Nashville and we’re going to get sushi, so I’m going to juice all my other meals in the hope that the sushi doesn’t add too much bloat to me.  I won’t be able to weigh in tomorrow morning because I have to work super duper early, so we’ll see on Wednesday!